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So my sister has a blog (http://hmmthatsinteresting.blogspot.com ) and I have been too lazy to put a link to it however, her blog about Helena not being home made me think.  It all started with the comment I left her:

Sister of mine, you have moved into the world of social behaviour! I am so proud of you! j/k. Glad to see you are following the natural progression of growing up...Helena isn't home, its where you grew up, where your memories are. It isn't even comfortable, its soothing... knowing that it will always be there even if you move. So keep growing exploring and plant seed everywhere...someday they'll grow into roots and you'll stay planted.  

 
It got me thinking.  How did I grow out of Helena, or better yet, did I grow out of Helena?  Maybe it was Helena that grew up and not me...but due to observation I doubt that.  My dad once said something to me and I think for many it holds true "Helena sucks so bad, it will suck you right back." Fortunately for me I have never been back for over 3 months at a go, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss it.  Living 3000 miles away has made me remember what I do love about MT, and why I love going back.  Moutains, snow, forrests, fresh air, sun, beautiful sunsets.  All of those things are memories I have, with each word I can think of a happy memory, and that is why its good to go back to Helena.  What kid from Helena hasn't experienced the Parrot, or the Ox?  You say those words and any true Helenan has some memory if not many memories of that place.  It great. 

 But now I think and reflect to my current life, my home since I was 18 has been Seattle, Galway Ireland, San Diego, Derry Ireland, and I am sure there may be a few more before my roots grow and keep me stationary.  I am not anticipating where that will be, I know God has plans and its my job to follow, and that is just what I have been doing.  But the one constant that remains is Helena and my friends and family.  The one thing I long for most (well 2 things) are friends/family and Montana.  Its in my heart and in my soul.  It has made me the person I am today and for that I am thankful, but its now my time to venture out into this wild world and create a home for my children to be that will someday be there place of soothing, and serenity.  Until then, I hope my adventures continue to occur.

Anger strikes

So today I just found out I don't get my deposit from the house I rented this year, because the boys I lived with destroyed it before the moved out.  The fire place in the sitting room was torn from the wall, and the fire extinguishers were all emptied, and they stole the kitchen table.  On top of that there is an outstanding electric bill that I refuse to pay.  I am exasperated to say the least, and that mixed with home sickness just makes me want to jump on a plane tomorrow and go home.  I know in Helena I would have a job that would allow me to save my money, and here I am always broke.  I am supposed to go to Galway next weekend, but have no clue how I will ever get the money for it since my hours have been reduced at the bar.  I know I am wining but I can't help it, I am so frustrated.  Just when things start to look good some big dark cloud comes and makes them seem so impossible.  I know money isn't everything, and that I have never been let down, but things just seem so hard right now.  I will quit sulking now.

Oh yeah...Anthony who are you? Do I know you?

Short and Sweet

I know that doesn't sound like me, but I am in a hurry. I am doing a Vacation Bible school type thing here in Derry this week and its tons of fun. Nevermind the cold I am getting and the working insane hours at the bar as well, but whatever that is all fluff. :) So my life this week has been endless and alas I have to leave again to make it up to our teen program tonight. I am still looking forward to going home, but the more I am here the more this town has grown on me. Oh yeah the 12th went well, well all except some silly fight in Belfast, but I guess that is what happens when you combine drink and pig headed folks who can't compromise. WAHOO for stubborn drunk jackasses! Or not. Well that's me signing off.

Peace!

Updates

Since someone who won't tell me their true identity has commented on my lack of updates, I feel as though I should write a bit more. I am still working TOO much, and this week am doing a Kids Week with my church here in Derry. It should be a fun sleep deprived week, geez, I forgot what sleep deprivation truely was. WAHOO! Well I am at just the begining, and I have a feeling that come next week I am just gonna crash.

I wish I had some juicy gossip to share about my life but I don't. I highlighted my hair so now I have light brown hair (not dark brown) I still have no prospects on the guy thing...but that is over rated.

And now I am just counting down the weeks until I get to come home and relax for a month. (only 6 weeks and counting). So that is my uneventful life. The 12th of July parades are tomorrow ( SCARY!!! ) but oh well...I am not involved, I just hope they go on without a hitch. Oh yeah the Ulster Final is today, but no news on the results.

Slacker

Hey All! I am sure I have lost some viewers along the way since my posts are now few and far between. I have been sooo busy with work and catching up on sleep that when I do check my email writing on my blog just takes too much time.

Life in N. Ireland is good. I was recently accepted to a graduate programme that is a 35 week internship/placement all paid. I just have to find a company to work for. It starts in October and I could end up in Asia, Australia, America, Canada, or somewhere in the Middle East. God only knows. But I made it this far which is a feat. I have had to do an application, assessment with group work and now have to interview with individual companies. I also have to start my dissertation before I head back state side in September. For all of you Americanos there in the states I am gonna be in Seattle at the end of Sept. I would love to meet up.

Other than that I am just working insane hours at the Strand Bar here in Derry and trying to get back in shape after my marathon...I have only been running 3 times sine it ended...YIKES!

Well that is my life sorry I haven't been updating more often.