21.12.04

Honesty

When does a person choose to be dishonest to friends? I will never for the life of me figure it out. I found out today that a friend of mine, one I thought was a VERY good friend is in fact not the person I thought he was. Just about 3 days before I came home he kinda dropped off the face of the earth and just quit talking to me. Then I find out what I thought to be a truth filled friendship was well...A Lie! Part of me wants to be furrious with him. The other part of me is ok with his choices, but just is baffled at the lack of respect for another. I guess I am a notch above the rest, I actually care about my friends enough to let them know when I have made choices that affect our friendship.

Honesty hurts, but dishonesty hurts more!

12.12.04

Home safe and sound

I am home. Safe. Sound. Tired.

But it is good to be here. In just one day I have seen some good friends of the past, and that is nice. But its weird being home now as well. I have a feeling that some friendships where effort was put forth while abroad are starting to die with me being back in the states. And that makes me sad.

It also has gotten me thinking, is it worth the time and energy put forth to invest yourself in others lives? I have always tried to be a friend to all, and be a true friend. But then I wonder if sometimes I think too highly of humanity and others. If I give too much credit to others, trust too much. I don't know, but recently in Ireland and now I am starting to see here, I feel that I give too much and never expect anything in return, and perhaps that is my downfall.

Don't know.

Start my new job tomorrow and that should be fun. A REAL JOB!!!

7.12.04

Espana y Montana

Well here I am in Spain. And so much is happening it is INSANE!!! Where to begin. I depart here tomorrow and then with the grace of God will get a flight to Seattle on Thursday. Then I will be back state side for good! I just got a job last night (well yesterday afternoon US time) as the Page Supervisor at the State Legislature! I am very excited and can't wait to start. It really is a perfect job for me. And the job I really really wanted. So that is good. I do have to cut my time here short, but ultimately it will be for the best.

So it really is tough to beleive but I am going home in 2 days...yes 2 days. Wow, I didn't think this time would ever come. The time when I depart Ireland and again don't know the specific date I return...although it won't be long. Ireland is more home than it ever has been!

5.12.04

Adventures...what adventures

Well here I sit in the Dublin airport, awaiting my flight to Barcelona...yes Barcelona. Lets just say I have amazing friends who love me and as a gift of thanks they like to pay for my all expense (well nearly) holiday to Barcelona before I depart stateside for good! God Bless friends! But here I sit anxiously awaiting what the next chapter of my life will be. I have been talking to a person in Helena re: a job as Page Supervisor at the State Legislature and it truely is my dream job. I want this job SOOOOO bad. There is some possibility that I get this job and will have to return home early, there is also some possibility that I will still return to Seatown the 15th and Montucky the 19th. But I won't know until perhaps tomorrow or even as late as Wed. So its crazy at the moment! Again it wouldn't be MY life if it weren't crazy.

Well I don't want to miss my flight or anything so I best go!