On a happier note

I turn 26 in 4 days!!!! YAY!!!

Inadequacy

Is there ever a point in someone's life where inadequacy seems like it is the norm and the expected. I have never thought that and wouldn't except that is just how I feel at the moment. I feel as though I could give my 110% and it still isn't enough. Some how I am still falling short.

Part of what brings this on is my inability to pass my state insurance licensing exam. I have failed 3 times....yes count them...3...1,2,3. I have never failed anything more than once. And I am usually one to learn from mistakes but somehow I just can't pass. I study, and to no avail.

I have been asked by some if it is because I am too busy, which could be the case. But I can't manage to live with out my second job. Ok that is a lie...I could manage but I couldn't pay off my debt or begin to pay off my student loans with out this second job. Which then brings me to my thought...should I be doing what I am doing? I love the company I work for, and I couldn't imagine anything more enjoyable at the moment that pays this well. BUT...and this is a huge BUT...should I be putting this much effort and time into something I am just not sure I can complete successfully?! I just don't know. I am at a loss. I don't know how to send those thoughts of inadequacy to their time out in the corner.

I am fine when I don't think about studying or the test but then I let my mind wander and I feel horrible, I feel like a failure, I feel like just not showing up to work anymore because I have too much dignity to get to the point where the 'let me go'.

So for now I will rehash all that is going on through out my mind. Try to sort it out, and hope and pray for the best.

Education

I was reading this article today. If only we were all that excited about learning and school...

http://www.cnn.com/2005/WORLD/africa/09/14/pupil.un.ap/index.html

I will be MIA

Yes I have been MIA, and will continue to be in the future. I am working 2 jobs, and trying to have a life outside of that as well. Life is busy and full. So the time to blog is little and just takes precious time needed for other things (like studying for my life and health license.)

I have a lot of material to post on...so when I have a free minute you can be sure that I will update my blog. But until then...I will be MIA. SORRY!!!

update

Just letting everyone know I am doing well. Life is insane. I start working at the Pub (Reiley's) here next week and will officially be working 80 hours a week. It should be a good time. But for now I am off to Missoula to take a licencing class for work and then the Exam is Saturday...you all should say a little prayer that I pass. AAAGGGHHH! So that's me at the moment. Sorry so short and sweet.

10 weddings and a funeral

Ok I have tried to update this for a while...and it didn't work and didn't work...then the network was down...so again I lost all the information. A few weeks ago a friend and I were joking that I had so many weddings (at the time 4) that I needed a funeral to make '4 weddings and a funeral'. At the time it was funny (and still is) but now it has come to fruition.

As the title of the blog suggests this summer has not only been filled with Weddings. I now have a funeral. Sean Reid, a Seattle U alum, died Sunday. He had cancer for over a year, and I know he's in a much better place.


The link below is an article he wrote right after graduation. He is such an amazing soul...and will live long after his earthly death.

Please read:

Sean Reid

MIA-Wedding Season

I recently went to a wedding (by recent I mean 2 weeks ago) and wanted to post to my blog...but me being the scatter brain that I am I can't find my camera attachment, so I had to find my parents camera attachment....I guess I could have written about it, but what good are the words if I don't have a photo or 2 to back it up. So here it is 2 weeks later and I am writing about the amazing wedding of year.

Jonny and Sara (my roommates from Soph year of college) got married. It was done in true Badgowski style. On the budget but the class didn't lack. The weekends festivities began with a rehersal at the Chapel of St. Ignatious, at Seattle University. Then it was off to the House of Roy...to most Seattlites its the House of Hong...and we had a nice smorgusboard of yummy chinese food. Then it was to the Garage, for some cocktails and sightings of some long lost SU alumnus.

The night of the wedding was just as fabulous. I went to the Bite of Seattle with some good ol' MT folk, then off to the wedding where I read and watched some of my close friends joined in union.

Really it was an amazing weekend, full of friends from around the world. I am amazed, the class of 2002 from SU is amazing. We are living our dreams and creating new goals to change the world.

Now time for the pics: