Alone

Its odd how in just one week your entire perspective of life can change. In this week I have had to say good-bye to many of my friends here in Derry who originally lived in other EU countries. That has been hard, and harder yet is knowing that throughout the summer I am not going to be able to just randomly visit duncreggan (the student village) and see all my friends, as none of them will be there.

I am also questioning my life's ambitions. Do I really want to start Clementine's Cookies and live here for many years. Do I want to take that risk? Will I be able to make an income to pay off my student loans? And do I really want to stay here as I once thought I did? None of these have answers and I haven't worried about these questions until today when I had time to let my mind wander and time to just think. Its hard. Since returning from Montana I am really questioning my place in the world. What do I want to do with my life? And if I can answer that question, how am I going to get there?

Being 20-something suck I have decided. I lack direction and need guidance yet it seems everyone I know who has encountered such difficulties feels the same and has no recommendations on how to pass these years with out going through a quarter life crisis. I know these are some of the best years of my life, but the quarter life crisis has kicked in full gear! Booo!!!